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Title: To A Happier Year
Pairing: Thomas Barrow/Edward Courtenay
Word Count: 748
Spoilers: 2x02
Summary: You're lucky I trust you. Thomas takes Lieutenant Courtenay on an outing.
Author's Note: Written for the Downton Abbey Comment Ficathon. (Everyone come hang out, it is tons of fun!) I wrote this as a sort of what-might-have-been AU, but considering how wonkily this show handles the passage of time, I guess it could fit somewhere into canon!


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"I can arrange it," the Lady Sybil promises, and to her credit, she does. The three of them nearly make their escape one sunny morning, before the wrath of Clarkson catches them up at the last moment.

"You go," Sybil whispers; her fingers curl kindly around Lt. Courtenay's shoulder, and then she leaves him with Thomas.

"And then there were two," Thomas says, securing Courtenay's elbow with his good hand. The man's made fast progress already walking with the aid of the stick, and Thomas wonders whether perhaps he'll take Thomas stepping in now as an insult, an accusation of weakness. If the Lieutenant feels any of that, he doesn't show it. He leans back into Thomas's grip with a kind of thoughtless, unremarkable faith.

"Where are we going?" he asks, again. He doesn't seem in any rush; with his eyes closed, he looks like anybody would, enjoying the sun. Like he'll open his eyes at any moment and drink the green morning in.

"Ah ah," Thomas says. "That's a secret."

"You're lucky I trust you," Lt. Courtenay says, opening his eyes; in spite of everything, Thomas finds it easy to forget that he can't see him.


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Drake and his wife are civil enough, if not exactly warm at first. They were expecting the Earl of Grantham's daughter to impress with their compassion; a footman-turned-medic and a blind man don't merit the same courtesies. But Courtenay is (it turns out) a personable man when he's in a good humor, and he knows what he's talking about. In no time, he and Drake are chatting easily about plows or harvests or God knows what; farming has always struck Thomas as something to avoid at all costs, not aspire to. He doesn't pay much attention to the words exchanged, but he is aware of Courtenay's voice, a smooth constant thing. It gets lighter and more animated. It's something to be proud of, Thomas thinks; pulling this man out of hell, bit by bit.

Mrs. Drake offers to serve them lunch inside, but Courtenay opts to stay out in the fresh air. They wait on the meal in the barn, sitting on the dirt floor. Everything smells of hay. The only sounds belong to animals, and seem steady and natural as the ground under them. Nothing sharp or sudden or too-loud. Everything quiet and still. Empty space and so much light. It's like the whole world's stopped around them, or maybe let them go.

"What does the dog look like?" Courtenay asks when she rushes up to them, tail thumping merrily, seeking out Courtenay's hands for a scratch behind the ears.

"Black and white. Long hair. Collie or something, I think."

"Border collie," Courtenay supplies.

"Sounds right," Thomas agrees. The dog deflects to him momentarily, licks his glove in a nondiscriminatory fashion, then goes back to Courtenay, who makes for a more enthusiastic admirer.

"You're a beauty," Courtenay murmurs, her ears in his hands. "You're a right beauty, aren't you."

Thomas looks at the hands buried in black fur; whole, strong, unblemished hands. The hands of an Oxford boy, waiting to be broken in.

"Perhaps I ought to hate you for bringing me here," Courtenay says - conversationally, more than anything. "For reminding me what would've come to me easily once."

And in spite of everything, there's that panicked jolt in his chest. Just for a second. "Do you?"

"No."

"Good." Thomas reaches over to the dog's head with his one good hand. His finger meets Courtenay's. Courtenay doesn't seem to mind. "The things that come easy, they're never worth much."

"How did you get to be wise? You're not a hundred years old, are you, and just happen to sound young?"

Thomas chuckles. "Sometimes I feel it."

"Don't we all."

Their still hands annoy the dog; she shakes the both of them off -- dismissed for bad behavior -- and runs out of the barn. And then there were two.

"We've still got years and years to go," Thomas says. Courtenay rests his hand on the ground in the space between them. "We're the ones who got out. The world's ours to make of it what we will."

"I love how you speak like that. As if the world owes you. I wish I could be so sure."

"Stick with me," Thomas suggests. He bridges the small distance, bumps his shoulder against Courtenay's. "I'll teach you."

"I'll hold you to that," Courtenay says -- and ah, there's a smile.

Date: 2011-10-04 01:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] espressolast.livejournal.com
Ahhhhh this fic is a breakout star of the ficathon.

"I'll hold you to that," Courtenay says -- and ah, there's a smile.

Unfortunately now my heart and brain are...sort of a fine dust.

Date: 2011-10-17 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dollsome.livejournal.com
Aww, dusty heart brain! Thank you. :D

Date: 2011-10-04 02:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mayonegg.livejournal.com
He doesn't seem in any rush; with his eyes closed, he looks like anybody would, enjoying the sun. Like he'll open his eyes at any moment and drink the green morning in.

Ahhhh, so beautiful.

Loved this.

Date: 2011-10-17 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dollsome.livejournal.com
Thank you so!

Date: 2011-10-04 03:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] theafterimages.livejournal.com
Oh, for what could have been! D: I was shipping the hell out of them. Sigh.

Date: 2011-10-17 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dollsome.livejournal.com
AS WERE WE ALL. Sigh. Thank you!

Date: 2011-10-04 12:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] innovativecheat.livejournal.com
Beautiful! I wish they'd be given more time in that episode, even if just to encourage more wonderful fic like this. I'll keep an eye out for you in the future, I really erally enjoyed that. :)

Date: 2011-10-17 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dollsome.livejournal.com
Aw, thank you so much! :)

Date: 2011-10-04 01:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wakingworld.livejournal.com
You.

You are flawless.

And this breaks my goddamn heart. ;____;

Date: 2011-10-17 06:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dollsome.livejournal.com
AWWWW. Thank you! ♥

Date: 2011-10-04 03:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] schubertiana.livejournal.com
Oh, this was like balm on hot skin - I think there are quite a few of us that needed a fic like this one after the second episode.

And the writing is beautiful, and your eye for detail great; you capture this bittersweet, pensive moment in time and transports your readers right into it, lovely. Thanks for sharing.

Date: 2011-10-17 06:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dollsome.livejournal.com
Aw, thank you so much! :)

Date: 2011-10-04 06:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] oleander9999.livejournal.com
I definitely needed this and I was pleasantly thrilled that not only was it the story I yearned for, but also a really excellent piece of writing! I love how you've captured Thomas -- his longing, his mistrust, his carefully-guarded lust, his fear of rejection so closely hidden. Love his merciless self-knowledge -- that he has a "type", the upper class, inexperienced "boy", that he must always be subtle and wait and watch for his chances, that he still responds to strong, if uninitiated, hands. You've given us a plausible Courtenay, too -- full of potential and ready to learn whatever Thomas wants to teach him. Will we get a sequel??? In any case, thanks for this. I still can't believe Fellowes WASTED this fantastic opportunity for developing Thomas. I can only hope that he has a replacement planned, but then I remember Morris and Henry from Gosford Park and wonder if he has the guts...

Date: 2011-10-17 06:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dollsome.livejournal.com
Aw, thank you so much, what a nice comment! :) I definitely feel like this storyline will always have Wasted Opportunity all over it; whyyyy, Fellowes?

p.s. I love your icon. OH DARREN NICHOLS.

Date: 2011-10-05 09:30 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] isiscolo.livejournal.com
I liked this!

Date: 2011-10-17 06:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dollsome.livejournal.com
Thank you!

Date: 2012-05-30 06:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anoel.livejournal.com
Awwww so cute!!!

(and then there's a kiss right?)

Date: 2012-05-30 07:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dollsome.livejournal.com
OF COURSE. :D

Thanks, girl!

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