I don't even know what life is anymore. Seriously. I almost started crying like five times; and it was lines that I don't know why I would cry but I wanted to. And oh God Amy, who's just so dazed and where's my baby, where's my baby that it hurts, oh my lord it hurts, even for the reader.
This was just wonderful and skewed and shows all the emotions so beautifully. How does one go back to the kettle and the hospital when somewhere out there is a daughter that is yours but never really?
And where's my baby where's my baby.
Really. Just stunning.
“How do you turn a baby into a weapon?” Rory says, like he doesn’t want to but the words just fight their way out.
Really, that was just a perfect line because Rory, for all our fangirling is just the perfect Earth Human, who won't can't shouldn't look beyond, and can't won't will never fathom things that the rest of the universe will think and do. And you just capture it so well. Like he doesn't even understand how the words he's saying could be connected, but he knows they are and he just doesn't understand and i love that.
Her fingers curl into a loose fist, making Amy think of those wavy sea creatures that shrink in on themselves when you touch them. What are those called again? The Doctor would remember.
this. this and the comparison to little Melody's triumphant finger squeeze. So much pain and so much perfect and it was just so wonderful [and I’m running out of adjectives and I’m sorry]; and i love that it really shows Amy's person, and her thinking, and everything; and if she doesn't know the Doctor will (but where's he now, where is he?); it really was just a great line, and the juxtaposition with River's hands and Melody's was well thought out and delivered.
“I just want to make sure she’s able to follow her dreams, all right??”
This. all of it, because that is who Rory is, and he's becoming such a great father without realizing it; and i love this line because it sort of shows the shock that both of them are still under [and that punch that Rory throws later is also splendid, that somehow he's hiding it all, letting it build up, because he's the Lone Centurion and he can't break down, not now, not ever, but it's his baby girl out there, and he can't be strong forever]; the fact that Rory wonders about university fees and tea taste and such human dull things just highlights what a wonderful character he is and how wonderful writer you are.

And that scene in the grocery. Oh dear lord. That was perfect and wonderful and painful, oh god, so painful. And poor Amy, so broken but she shouldn't be, should she, because her daughter is alive, but she doesn't know if she'll ever get to feed her smelly pees and change diapers and its devasting, and i can't say enough how well you just have it framed. It’s wonderful.

OH! OH! And Here she is now. All grown up.
There is just so much; the transformation of Amelia to Amy, of Amy the singular to Amy and Rory, of Amy the non-mother to now Amy the mother; she's down so much growing up, so many changes and transitions and in the end all she wants, all she needs [oh god she needs it] is for the Doctor to show up and take her suitcase and take her away
but he won't.
and she's had to grow up.
and it's hurt so bad.
and now she wonders if he'll ever come back
and if he'll bring with him something so much more important than him with.

I don't even know.
It's just you did wonderful.
It was all of Rory and Amy's hate and hurt and confusion and contemplation and do we go back to living? How do we go back to living? and River and frustration and is this breathing? I’ve forgotten again.
Really. This was just perfect.
/awkward long post is over now